It feels like it was four days since I last wrote you all! ;)
This has been a good week. We haven't had a ton of appointments, but since we've been in the area for more than 2 days we've been able to set up a lot of appointments with investigators and less active members. We're scheduled for a long hall in Meridian this week - that's why it'll be so vital for us to have as many appointments and contacts while in the area as we can!
When I think about it, it seems like I haven't done a ton or learned a lot this week. But when I look back at it, I realized that this week was a great learning experience for me.
I feel like I have been stagnant with my feeling of the spirit and my testimony. With everything that's been happening - going back and forth from Meridian, the announcement of the Christmas initiative, and the radio silence from our main investigators - I feel like I've been a robot going from one task to the next. I couldn't feel the spirit, and I started to doubt all the experiences I've had with feeling the spirit (I know it's silly, but that thought was in the back of my mind). We had a lesson in Relief Society yesterday about feeling the spirit, and the catchphrase "brick by brick" was used. A sister talked about how she had never had the big experience - there were little assurances and signs along the way that built her faith and trust in Heavenly Father and the Holy Ghost. I realized that I hadn't been paying attention to the little things. There was an Elder in my district last transfer that said (and I'm paraphrasing): "As missionaries, we feel the spirit all the time! So when we feel like he's not there or we're not getting answers to our prayers, it's okay. We've grown so used to having Him with us that it's sometimes hard to feel him." We need to pay better attention and work on seeing and feeling the promptings of the Holy Ghost. As I've put my anxieties and doubts away, I have felt the quiet assurance that He is there. I have a testimony of this - and I would not have gained a testimony of this if I had not had this experience this week. I am thankful for a Heavenly Father that allows us to wade through trials and afflictions so we can grow. I say these things in the name of Jesus
Christ, amen.
I love you all so much! Have a great week :)
Sister Carlson
P.S. - Is anyone getting letters from me?
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